Oh, yeah

Monday, October 02, 2006

Oh Yeah...

I have a blog.

School is stressful. Last week was the worst. I had three exams and a paper due. I am a major procrastinator so I waited until the last minute to do everything. Grades were ok. Not great but not horribly unfortunate either. I still have so much to do.

My last IUI failed. Shocker!!! I am out of money. I am tired of making financial sacrifices with no reward. Mostly I'm just tired. My doctor has asked me to do yet another HSG. It will be my third. They hurt. I don't want to do it but I feel like I need to do it. It is justified. I have endo and I have it pretty badly so my tubes could be crushed at any moment. We are also going to do a clomid challenge test. This is just so exhausting. So many people have it so much worse than I do but still this takes the wind out of me. My period was a couple of days late. So of course false hope crept in. Today is cycle day one and this will all get going in a mere moment. I am back in the game for the moment. I keep wondering if we should scrap the infertility treatments and just move to adoption. It feels awful to think about admitting defeat. I guess I am not ready to move to adoption if I feel like making the jump to move to adoption is defeat. It just doesn't do justice to adoption and what a wonderful plan it is.

Oh and my mom called me crying today to tell me that my sister is pregnant.