Arrgghhhh! I feel like I am in high school again.

I am having a moment of insecurity that is rooted in my extreme high school nerdiness that I can't seem to shake. My friend is between job contracts currently and is living with us until July. When did she become so cool and fabulous? Friends aren't supposed to make you feel bad about yourself She doesn't mean to. I know she doesn't. But I feel like the weird awkward girl again. The one who can't figure out how to do her make up. The one who wears clothes that are frumpy and out of style. Suddenly, in my own house I feel like the one who doesn't fit in. I feel like I don't belong. Which brings me to IF once again. She is single and she has fabulous single friends. She showers at 4pm and gets ready to hit the town and parties until the wee hours. I am married and boring. I fall asleep during Leno. I don't know where I belong. I am Mormon which means that everyone in my social circle from church has not one, not two, but three or possibly more children. These are women that are my age! I have none. I have a husband who is nine years older than me which means that he has already done the "party until the wee hours" scene. I missed it because I wanted to be married and I wanted to be a mother. Well, I'm married but motherhood eludes me. I don't fit anywhere.