I had my third HSG a few weeks ago

I had my third HSG a few weeks ago

We have had a run of bad news recently.

I did a CCCT in the month of October that showed that I have diminished ovarian reserve which is not a big surprise given that large chunks of ovary have been removed in surgery due to my severe endo. I had an HSG in January of this year that showed that both tubes were open which was good. Because I had reoccurance of the endo while on lupron two months after I had surgery in March my doctor wanted to do another HSG. This was my third HSG overall. It showed that my right tube is now blocked. (sigh) Now that I have had three HSG's I have a tiny bit of advice to dispense. I realise that most people on this board are past this stage of testing but if know someone who is about to endure this yucky test it might be worth passing on. On my first HSG I took a little bit of tylenol and it hurt like hell, the second time I took 600 or 800 mg of Ibuprofen and it helped somewhat, still hurt but not nearly so bad, this time I requested valium and my doctor warned me, saying "ok, big cramp coming" and I said "what cramp?". I didn't feel a thing. It was wonderful. So my pearls of wisdom are Valium and HSG's should go hand in hand, always. I usually get a little verbally slutty while on drugs to make me relax and this time was no exception. I was laying on the table in waiting for my doctor to get started and he was fussing with his tools and my mouth got the better of me. Usually I see him in scrubs and cowboy boots, (gotta love New Mexico) but today he was wearing black slacks, a lovely yellow shirt and a beautiful tie to match. He looked great! He is young, probably mid- thirties, and he is pretty cute. So, while laying on the table, I looked over at him and said, "You look pretty" in a loopy, somewhat ditzy voice. He laughed at me and said "and you're in a hospital gown" while sort of chuckling. I wish someone would follow me around with tape to place over my mouth the next time I have to take valium. Oh well.

I really feel disconnected to all of this bad news. I don't know if I am starting to give up or if I am expecting things to go badly, or if I am just handling things better. I wish I could figure out what my next move will be. I am really in limbo and usually that bothers me but right now I don't really care. The not caring is what is bothering me.