ENRAGED!

On the way to our RE this afternoon we were driving and we were stopped at a light and there was a pregnant woman crossing the street in front of us. As if that isn't nauseating enough I noticed that the expectant mother was smoking. I was immediately outraged...almost to the point of tears. Why do people do this? Does she not understand the gift that she has been given? I have been in a snarly mood all day.

Paul and I are getting sealed in the Salt Lake Temple for our anniversary in May. We are excited and we are planning a small get together afterwards. I want to keep it small and intimate, inviting those are we are very close to. I want to keep it to about 12 people. I have asked my uncle and his wife to be there and my aunt and her husband and their eldest child. My aunt and uncle used to be married. I am not close to their second child but he called me today out of the blue to imply that he wanted to be invited. It pissed me off. Again, why do people do this? I know that people are going to get pregnant and go on with their lives despite my infertility but he and his wife are expecting their first child and the family rumor mill has it that he said to my grandmother, "J will be either pregnant or nursing for the next 10 years". I have no idea if this is true as it is in fact gossip but it got under my skin. What a tacky thoughtless thing to say. I need for this time to be about Paul and me and I need it to be a "safe" place, safe from fertiles and pregnant women. Is this too much to ask. I did not cave and invite him. It felt kinda good to have balls if only for a short moment.