The irony about infertility

We are continuing to move forward with the prospect of moving into the new house. We are going to be doubling our current mortgage payment which every time I think about it makes my stomach jump into my throat. In order to fork out the money for this DE cycle we pulled some money out when we refinanced the house earlier this year. The house we are currently in is 1306 square feet. And we are literally bursting at the seams. Well, we have more clutter than I prefer at any rate. There certainly isn't much room for a baby here. And there really isn't room for two. We could absolutely make it work if we had to but I'd really like a bigger house. The likelihood that I can have a baby naturally is almost nil so if we want to have children we need to come up with the big bucks. Prior to the refinance we had about $70K in equity in the house. We pulled $20K out in the refinance and now we're looking at having only around $30K to put towards the new down payment. Damn realtors fees and upgrades to the house! That is a big chunk of change! So, if I have a baby I need to move. But in order to have the baby I have to spend money that should go towards the house. But in order to get the new house I need more money. Which I spent trying to have the baby in the first place. Sigh. It's a sad little cycle. It's time to be grateful. At least we have the opportunity to even try for a baby. I'm grateful for that.

More irony. My friend Shari and I were looking at baby stuff online the other day. We were looking at extravagant thousand dollar strollers and I recommended www.poshtots.com for giggles. It's obnoxious celebrity type stuff that real people can't afford and would never spend money on. I'm probably overstating here but look at the name of the place for pete's sake. I had seen this bed before and was shocked at the time. Now, I just think it's hilarious. Looking at this bed brings out the inner princess in all of us until we see the price tag. Click here for the link. Her first remark when she saw the bed was that she wanted that bed for herself. Well, who wouldn't? We were talking about the outrageous price when she suddenly stopped. "I spent more than that on infertility treatments last year. And what do I have to show for it? Nothing! I should have bought that stupid bed." We laughed still but we were a little saddened too.

Yes, it's been a week filled with irony.